Lero4ka's Journals

5 Songs that I fell in LOVE with when I first heard them

I got tagged by Stephy. Thank you, dear =)

1. Madonna - Frozen

2. Placebo - Song To Say Goodbye

3. 30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill

4. Panic at the Disco - Nails for Breakfast, Tacks for Snacks

5. Morandi - N3XT

Now I want to tag:

killerflower

iska

idroppeddead

punkroux

xxbrendonishotxx

Hello, friends! I am back..... and I am sorry

I am sorry that I hadn't been here for... let's not count!

Well.... It is my first SUCH journal. I meant I didn't write about myself, about feelings, life before... I think it is not good.. It is not what other people want to read. They are here not for reading your 'stupidies'.

But I know there are some people who will read it. They are my friends who I miss a lot now. WHERE ARE YOU, GUYS???? (Mary is in California, I know xD). Let's wish her good luck!.. and to meet Shwarznegger. She wanted him... I mean she wanted TO MEET him.... hehe

My life is great. Sometimes. School sucks as always. But I recently realized I can't live without moving... yep yep! I am not crazy! Definitely without moving!

I can't live without Jazz... I just can't NOT love my life..

As you could understood I fell in love (only the people who love can write such ridiculous things xD). It is not good. It is the worstest thing which could happen to me.................. G-O-S-H! Help, please.. or I will go mad. (as Rabbits =)

I have already gone mad. Because of everything: school, dance classes, English classes, DIETS xD...

HOW ARE YOU ALL?????????????????????????????????????

Haha! My new profile photo is ridiculous xD

And I am sorry I don't have enough time to reply to all the notes and messages I got... Let's start a new page in our friendship?.. I am not definitely the same as I was a month ago.. I changed.

12 songs that make me happy

I can't live without music... So I think it is the reason why Jackie tagged me... or was there another reason?

Santana - Into the Night

That Carlos Augusto Alves Santana aka Santana makes me feel happy.... I don't know why but he is so funny there! xD

Ashlee Simpson - Just Let Me Cry

I don't think her voice is great but I like the way she sings.... especially this song

Gorillaz - Kids with Guns

The music is great!!!!

Panic at the disco - Nine in the Afternoon

How can I not add this song???.... I pay attention to music at first and then to lyrics, voice and so on..... I wanna tell Panic's Afternoon is more than just a great song. The end of the song is... ohhhh

Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit

Today I heard the song firstly after some years...

Morandi - Angels

Ooh. Morandi is a Romanian band (It is so near to Russia!)..... Yes. I got obssessed with them (with HIM exactly xD).

Morandi - Love Me

Love me cause inside I am slowly dying.

Call me. Don't you know that my heart is crying?

Look into my eyes - you will find sadness and loneliness.

Just look inside my soul - I am feeling so empty... empty.. (Recognize it, Mary?)

Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence

Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek

I heard this song firstly when I was watching the video with Audrey and Brendon.... Dios mio!!!

Justin Timberlake - Lovestoned

She looks like a model except she's got a little more asssss xD

Panic at the disco - Its Time to Dance

I like this demo better.... especially the middle, near the end

Snoop Dogg - Sensual Seduction

Who knows what I found in this song???? Why do I like it so much????

I have more than 12 songs... Let's see the rest xD

Panic at the disco - Karma Police

Who doesn't agree?

Take That - Rule the World

All the stars are coming up tonight

They're lying on the sky tonight

For you. For you

Nelly Furtado - All Good Things

I don't know why but it reminds me of Lara Croft.... xD

Well.... The list is not completed.... yeah. Maybe someone will tag me one more time? xD

10 songs that cheer me up

I got tagged by lovely Stephy!!... Whooooo hoooooooo. Let's dance!!!!!

The Beatles - All You Need is Love

Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit

A-HA - Celice

Black Eyed Peas - Gone Going

Morandi - By Your Side

Morandi - Angels

Panic at the disco - Nine in the Afternoon

Take That - Rule the World

The Eagles - Hotel California

Panic at the disco - Nails for Breakfast, Tacks for Snacks

There are some old-fashioned songs.... But they will never get old, right?

My top 5 guy list

Guess who this damn person who tagged me?

1. Brendon Urie

Ya ya... don't wonder, Brendon!

2. Andreas Ropcea

I haven't found a better picture xD.. But trust me he is very cute^^..... I got obssesed with him and sometimes I think I like him better than Brendon. Oh damn eyes!

3. Colin Farrell

He made me crazy 3 years ago!!!! He is the person who you should judge!.. (I couldn't upload a better photo. He doesn't decerve it xD)

4. Young Ryan Ross

-Without comments-

5. MICHAEL JACKSON

I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART!!!

I don't wanna tag anyone. Who wants - do it then.

I can't cut off a piece of me! Chapter 6

As I promised=)

Trya's POV

- MARIA!Where are you running WITH SUCH BAGS to????? S-T-O-P!!!

But she didn't listen to me... She was about to run me over!... and she hugged me.... TOO tight!

Me: MARY!!!!

Mary: Shut up!.. Let me too look at you.... Wow!.. You are just sexy!

Me: I know you are kidding!

Mary: Yeah... you are right. You are ugly, disgusting and stinky!

Me: You could not remind me I didn't take a shower in the morning.

Mary: I mean you stink Givenchy...

We were laughing as much as we could at the moment. We didn't have any words..... but understood how much we changed and couldn't believe we were standing face-to-face.

Mary, sadly: We are getting old...

Me: yeah.. we are way too old!

Mary, smiling: Where are we gonna go to?

Me: I will send you back to your home, of course!.. See! Your plane is still here.

Mary: How I guess we are gonna go home...

Me, pointing at Maria's bags: But did you wanna scare guys with THEM?

Mary, biting her lips: You are right.

Me: Gimme some

Mary, with a sarcastic voice: Which colour?

Me: It doesn't matter

Suddenly, my cell phone started ringing. I got a message.. from the guy... again... 'HEY HOW ARE YOU?'

Me: Sorry

Mary: Don't worry. The message is from your boyfriend, isn't it?

Me: Well.. not really. I don't have one at the moment.

Mary, smiling: Neither do I.

And we went home.

Mary: I was right talking about getting old.. You are limping as an oldster.

Me: Heh... nevermind.

....We finally got home....

Maria's POV

Me: Where are your parents?

Trya: It was a surpriseâ�¦ Guess what?

Me, shining: OMG!

Trya: Yeah! Yeah!... We will be alone!

Me: WHOAH!!!.. But where are they?

Trya: They went to Italyâ�¦

And I started jumping on Tryaâ�™s bedâ�¦ There were so many pillows on itâ�¦

I threw one to her.

Me: Who did you get message from?

Trya: Do you meanâ�¦

Me: Yeah, I mean it.

Trya: Wellâ�¦ I donâ�™t know who that guy isâ�¦

Me, with an evil smile: Donâ�™t pretend! You are bad at this.

Trya: Really! I donâ�™t even know his name!

Me: â�¦ but already like himâ�¦.

Trya: Maybe

Me: Donâ�™t blush.

Trya: Who?... Me??... Never!.. But now it is your turn!

Me: HUH?

Trya: Donâ�™t pretend. You are bad at this, too.

Me: Wellâ�¦ It was Joe.

Trya:â�¦.andâ�¦

Me, smiling: What â�˜andâ�™?

Trya: ..ANDâ�¦

Me:â�¦ he is cuteâ�¦.

Trya:â�¦.andâ�¦.

Me:â�¦. a-a-a-andâ�¦

Trya:â�¦.ANDâ�¦.

Me, looking through the window: The weather is nice, isnâ�™t it?

Trya:â�¦A-A-A-ANDâ�¦..

Me: I WANT HIM!

Trya, laughing: You said what I wanted to hear!.. I see through you, girl!

Then I told her everything what happened to me during the flight.

Trya, laughing: You always like monstersâ�¦. ugly guysâ�¦

Me: WHAT???

Trya: Donâ�™t kill me, my queen!.. Please!.. I just said the truth!

Me, with a killing face: Now Iâ�™ll show you who these monsters are!

And I threw to Trya the biggest pillow I had found on her bed.

Trya: A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-â�¦.!!!!

And she runned to the living room. We started fighting with slippers, pillows, clothes, BOOKSâ�¦ with EVERYTHING which was near our hands.

The war was over after we smashed the Egypt vaseâ�¦ OOPS!

But we kept laughing.

Trya, choking: Maryâ�¦ Mary... ENOUGH! I forgot to tell you something.

Me: What?

Trya, choking: We are going to a concert of the Horrors tonight.

Me: WHOAh! Great band!.. Who are they?

Trya, laughing: And why did you say â�˜Great bandâ�™ if you donâ�™t even know them?

Me, seriously: MMMmmâ�¦ It is all the weather.. But who are them?

Trya: Why should I know?

Me: Excellent! I have nothing to say! How can you buy tickets to a concert of the band you donâ�™t even know?

Trya: Youâ�™ll never get it. It is the only difference between us: I am too brilliant and you are too stupid!

Me, with a sarcastic voice: If you had been TOO brilliant, you would have already known the name of the guy who keeps writing you messages!

Trya: Goshâ�¦ *to a side* getting angry

Me: Gimme his number. I am gonna call him.

*15 mins later*

Me, chewing: MMMMmmmâ�¦ His voice is so sweet.

Trya: Stop drooling! He is mine. You have Joe.

Me:â�¦ but Joe has a girlfriendâ�¦

Trya: I donâ�™t care. That guy is mineâ�¦ What did he say?

Me: Only â�˜Yeahâ�™

Trya: And what have you been doing for 10 minutes in the kitchen???

Me: I am too shy in order to give calls to strangers. And while I was getting ready to call HIM, I looked at the refrigeratorâ�¦ and found nothing chocolate thereâ�¦

Trya, with a sarcastic voice: How it is bad I hid IT!

Me, showing the sizes of the box: Do you mean a biiiiiiig red box full of chocolate?

Trya: HUH?

Me: Iâ�™ve just eaten only it.

Trya: WHAAAAT?

Trya started coming to me slowlyâ�¦. with such scary face!

Me, getting outta the room slowly, by back: Was it what you have hidden? (Trya nodded).. Really?... heheâ�¦.. So I wanna tell you it is a bad place for hidingâ�¦ *keeping getting out*â�¦ Find another place.

Trya was getting closer and closerâ�¦

Me: Sorry but I gotta goâ�¦ I mustâ�¦ take a shower!.. *Mary smelled herself*..Ewww.. Wanna smell it?.. No?...

Trya: No. I just wanna kill you.

Me: Heheâ�¦ Really?.. MMMMmmmâ�¦

I finally got the doorâ�¦

Me: Sorry, butâ�¦

And I runned away from Tryaâ�¦ to the bathroom.

I can't cut off a piece of me! Chapter 5

Maria's POV

This hell finally finished. The plane landed.

I looked at Joe. Suddenly, I saw his eyes. He was looking at me, too... and smiled.

Trya's POV

Well... After 2 hours of sleeping it is the time of meeting Mary.. You are not in time, girl!

It is so bad I don't have a car... and don't have a guy with a car.

Gosh... I fell asleep while I was getting the airport by a bus. But it wasn't 10 mins how I was got up by an old woman (if I can call her in this way after what she did!) who dropped her bag on my left leg.. I don't know what was in the bag but I guess the woman is a builder... Maybe she stole bricks... Who knows?

I am too angry... Or I think I worry about Mary. It is her 1st time in Las Vegas. She can get lost... How I said earlier she always got problems.. She is just a problem girl!

I finally got the airport.. and saw Mary. I didn't recognized her at first! She changed too much!.... This purple hair... reminds me of my scary experience... When I was 10 (I don't remember exactly) I found a dye in the bathroom. Well... I just tried... but didn't read the instruction... and my hair got... mmm... bright green.. I don't still dye.. Yeah...

But exept for the purple hair Mary got slim and fit... and taller.

I specially stopped going to her because AT FIRST, I wanted her to recognized me and AT SECOND, she was going with a guy.. I didn't wanna disturb them.

Well.. The guy is cute... even very cute.... but not for me!

... Mary finally noticed me...

Joe's POV (30 mins before)

Our plane landed.

I don't know why but I am feeling happy.. very very!.. The reason is maybe the weather.

I looked at Mary... I am such a looser! Why did I leave her? It was only a kiss.. not more!.. Everyone makes mistakes, right? The kiss was only a mistake.. and not such a big mistake.

Mary looked at me back... I couldn't hold a smile. We both understood the offence was over.. just forgot about what happened...

The plane finally stopped. The people started getting out. I came to Mary and said 'Welcome to Las Vegas' smiling.

Maria's POV

Today is excellent. Now I will see Trya and Joe is not offensed any more (it is like I was guilty he kissed me!)...

... We got our luggage and got the main hall then.

I and Joe were talking about NOTHING. It was actually stupid things such as why women 'puff up' their lips and *** by plastic surgery and don't do the same to their butts..

Joe: .. and your butt would get like Jennifer Lopez's!...

.. Then I saw Trya! I waved her.

Me: I'm met.

Joe: Really?... And do you wanna tell me it is the end?

Me: Of course! I am already sick of you.

Joe: You are *counting* the 7th girl who said it!

Me: But if you are really in this way why must I hide the truth?

Joe: But you could pretend at least!... I thought you were good!

We laughed at the last time.

Me: Will we meet someday?

Joe: For sure!

Me: So I don't tell you 'Bye' but 'See you later'

Joe: Yeah.. see you

We hugged. I didn't wanna stop it.. The hug was so tight...

Me: Bye!

Joe: Not 'bye'!

Me: sorry.. See you

Joe: It is better.

I kissed him on his chick... and runned to Trya.

Awwww.. I am so sorry i didn't upload it on last Friday as I promised! =(... My computer crushed (it is a good reason. isn't it?).. So I just require to upload the next chapter now.. I don't wanna feel guilty any more!xD... but I don't have time.. or have???

I can't cut off a piece of me! Chapter 4

Maria's POV

Joe: I am sorry, but we can't...

Me: What happened?

Joe: I have a girlfriend...

My heart was down... What an awesome end!

Trya's POV

10 mins left as my parents have gone.

I finally feel free... I wonder how Mary will react. She doesn't know we will be alone... in a big house.. and there are too many cute guys...

And what about guys: I get messages from one. I don't even know who it is!... He is so weird!! I mean he doesn't even tell me his name. But I know this guy is from Las Vegas... Maybe we have already met and I don't just remember him?... Or maybe it is anyone who is just kidding???... In spite of it I receive thousands of messages!!!

Maria's POV

I and Joe didn't talk any more. He changed the number of his seat. I stayed alone...

What the hell always happens to me? Why does life have to be so complicated? I met the guy and he has a girlfriend... Just great! Never better!.. It can't be worse!

It is like the end of my life... (I guess it is over).. I have always been too sensitive... I am sure I will forget him in 5 days.

And Trya will help me... I forgot about her! I guess how much she hates me at the moment.. OOPS!.. It would be better if I didn't come.. yeah...

Joe's POV

I feel terrible..

I love Harry and can't live without her.. but... Mary... she is different from other girls.. And it is weird because I felt the same when I had met Harry at first.... I hope she will never learn about what happened...

...But how cool Mary kisses!...

13 things I want to do before I will die

I was tagged by Ms Maria Mariles.

Thank you very much, Miss.

(I think it was the last time you tagged me. Because only you always tag me and I have to post journals!xD..jk)

1. Provide my parents and grandparents

2. Meet my buzznet friends

3. Learn to play guitar

4. Improve my piano skills

5. Be an actress and Act Lara CroftxD

6. Make a band (maybe we will unite? How do you think?xD)

7. Just get famous.. very-very

8. Learn 3 languages and Know English as Russian

10. Leave school with the gold medal and Leave the St. Petersburg Academy of the Acting Art

11. Move to the USA

12. Go to Egypt (I just J'adore its history!!!^^)

13. Meet Brendon, Farrell and Jolie=)

I tag:

ryanrossismybf

ryanrossxxfan

lovelybrenny

punkroux

dianavalo

I can't cut off a piece of me! Chapter 3

Maria's POV

- Joe, do you always do in this way?

Joe: Mary?

Me: Yeah!.. You have already disturbed me twice.. Such a bad boy!

Joe: I'm...

He gave me a smile.

Joe: What is your seat number?

Me: 26B

Joe: Really???... I have the next one! Wow!... I thought I had to spend the flight time with any oldster...

We started laughing.

Me: You are kinda right... I'm such a bore! You will get too bored and maybe will die... So you are in a danger. Run away while you have a chance.

The voice said 'Passengers, get your seats, please...'

Me: Well. You don't alredy have any chance.

Joe: I am doomed!...

Joe's POV

I met Mary, again... I feel free beside her. It is like I have known her for ages... It is weird.

Me: Is your bag heavy?

Mary: Yeah, of course! This plastic pocket and bottle are too heavy!... Can you help me?

Me: For sure

And I took them...

...I guess we will have a ball here!

Me: Let's sit... WTF? Where is my seat-belt?

Mary: You are sitting on it

Me: hmm...

Mary: Don't think about it too hard!

Me: Yeah... I became kinda thoughtful...

I was think about Harry.. Soon I will see her!

Mary: It is taking off!!!!!!!

Me: Are you afraid of flying?

Mary: It is my first time!

Me: Don't worry... The plane can only crush.. not much...

Mary: SHUT UP, JOE!

I saw she was too scared... and like a kid... This kid looked so cute!

Maria's POV

I am so damn scared!..

Me: But if the plane starts crushing what will we do?

Joe: It just mean now we have to have a great time here! Let's do it!

Me: Yeah! Get it!

And we just started having fun.

*later*

Joe is sleeping. I am just looking out of the window.... How it is beautiful! I am feeling satisfacton...

Suddenly Joe's head fell on my shoulder... Joe is such a kid!

... My eyes are closing.. I can't do anything with them!

*Maria fell asleep, AGAIN!.... How much will you sleep yet?*

*later*

Joe: Good morning!.. I meant 'Good evening'!

Me: How much have I slept? *yawn*

Joe: Not that much, but it was enough for you to miss meal..

Me: Shit

Joe: ...but I got some chocolate for you.

Me: Aw... thanks!

I started eating.. How much I love milk chocolate!

Me: Thank you very much, Joe. It was tasty

I gave him a smile.

Joe: ha! You got dirty!.. Let me to help you

Me: Got it.. I don't mind.

I felt a touch of his fingers.. Then I felt his breath.. He was too close...

...And we kissed...